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Sharing my story with readers! Everyone read carefuly!

Hello Vancouver and all good people-readers!

I want to share my story and i hope that everyone will learn something from it.
Rule number one: Never ever sleep with anyone without condom
Rule number two: Never wait too long to test, because fear will destroy you
Rule number 3: Never ever question your negative hiv test result, because your soul will die..

When i was young and stupid, i had many, many unprotected one night stands. I thought that hiv is something that will happen to someone else but not me. After first cycle of unprotected one night stands i took an hiv test and tested negative, then i promise to myself that i will never ever sleep with anyone without protection. Days were pasing by and i was slowly forgeting about my promise to myself and i forgot terible fear of waiting for results. I was stupid again. A had again new cycle of many unprotected sex-and after that again tested negative. I thought that God is good and that he gave me second chance for life. I was thankful. Then i began to be asexual and using apstinence like protection. But after few years, in one warmy summer night i met a guy. We had such atraction that i can not describe with words. We slept together, again and again. After that, i found out that he is married and that i am just one of milion his love afairs. I found out that he has other girl every week or so. I fricked out! Again i started to thinking about hiv and about that how i can be so stupid. OMG, i had two chances and i destroyed them! God will never forgive me again! I was convinced that i have now hiv for sure, but i was afraid to test. Only option for me was to test positive because i was made mistake again. I was living in fear of hiv 4 years. I said to my mom everything that happened to me. She was listening to me. One day i gave blood in lab to check hormonal status. I did not knew but my mom order in lab that they test me for hiv from that blood sample. Few days after, my mom asked: Would you like to someone say to you that you are just negative? - Yes! But that is not possible! - i said. - But you are negative! - she told me. But, since 4 years have been past i could not belive that i am really negative and i started to doubt test, index values in test, i was doubting 3rd generation elisa, thinking that test is not good enough, that i need more than that, maybe ab-ag test or something, i was destroyed. Than i was starting to think that herbal suplement made my test false negative. My mental health gone, gone, gone. Every sign in my routine blood work i was conecting with hiv, low lymphocites, leukocites, immunoglobulins etc. I decidet to took another 3rd generation hiv test and was negative again. I still could not belive in it. One year after i was mentally destroyed, my marriage start to suffer, my friendships too and my familly realtions. Everyone knew that i am negative exept me-myself. I took than ab-ag test and it was negative too, but i starting to doubt that they did not do p24 for me, and that is false negative again, that i am one that is no making antibodies or not making them enough for test detection. My life became nightmare. Now, i am writing to you and still do not know am i negative or am i not. If i can turn back time, i would never have unprotected sex and i would never doubt first test result. Please learn something from this. Do not ruin your life because of hiv. Do not make yourself sad and person with destroyed soul. Please do not. Test once, accept your negative result and move on!

very scared and worried

I had insertive/top) anal intercourse with a guy I dated for a few weeks.  Although he did provide me with a negative hiv test report I have learned that he may have had other unprotected partners.  It was a one time thing and I ejaculated in his ass.  I am extremely worried and afraid.  While I read a top has a lesser risk I'm very stressed about this.  Please help.  As the top can I breathe a little easier?? 

Title: high risk

on the 21 0f july i had unprotected vaginal intercourse with my partner and again on the the 4th and  9th of august.we both went for a rapid test on the 25 of september and her results came back positive and mine were negative.A confimatry test  was done and her results remained positive.another test I took on the 6 October, my results were still negative.Is there a chance for my status to change...

relation of HIV with no or very less irregular mensus

please tell me the relation of HIV with having no or very less periods.I have had an exposer with a man who had tested negative 4 gen. Cmia test -- which he did after 42 days of non penetrative sex with a csw -- means no veginal or anal sex, only rubbing his penis in the boobs of csw and kissing by csw on his balls. he didnt had any exposer after that incident and after the CMIA test (negative)after 42 days , that i decided to have unprotected sex with him.what is the possibility that i can get HIV .please answer my question as i am worried regarding my periods . my hb level in the blood is very low aprox. 8. is it manopose or what?, i am 40 yrs.

Unprotected sex

I have a question, I had sex with a women last Friday, my penis was put into her vaginal around 2 second once time only, then finished by oral sex , my question is did I inflect HIV in high risk thanks

acute ars rash

Hello,I would like to ask about the rash you get from hiv1- how long will it take to show up?2- does it produce pus when pressed on?3- how long will it last?4- does it itch?Because after 23-24 weeks of exposure to unprotected vigainal sex I have had this red dots on my arms back forehead and some on my chest, they are small red dots and some of them produce yellow pus when pressed on.I've had it for 4 weeks so far some dots go away and some new ones show up

unprotected sex

I hadunprotected vaginal sex many times witha man since four years i did the rapid test once after two years it came out negative now i m experiencing mouth ulcers and a partially white tongue im really scared could it be HIV

Risk After Testing Negative

I was in a relationship with someone who did not know their status. After our relationship ended I was tested at 30 days from exposure and then again at 90 days from exposure, both negative. 60 days have past and we ended up in bed over the weekend without using protection. He said he has not been with anyone new in the last 60 days and I believe him but I'm wondering if I need to start the 30 day and 90 day testing again. I know that testing only tells you your status and not someone else's but would it be reasonable to assume that our weekend encounter was low risk?

ARS symptoms after 4 months scared to death


I am scared to death that I might have HIV it's ruining my whole life.I'm 23 years old (circumcised) I only had sex once with an female late 20's divorced it was quick about few minutes cause we were in her car it happened on 18th of April 2013 it was unprotected vigainal sex I came out cause we weren't using protection and that was the last time I talked to her (I feel extremely guilty and stupid of how could I let myself be so naive!).After 119 days exposure (17 weeks) I got sick with flu (I just came back from a holiday and one of my friends was sick during that holiday so I assumed I got it from him) I didn't pay much attention after a week from that I got some kind of small dots on my arm so I googled it and started reading about HIV symptoms and hell broke lose from there I had severe anixaity and depression I didn't eat for for a whole weekend and I believed I was doomed after a week from that I found out I had bedbugs so I used a cream that treated that after that I felt a bit of relief but not fully cause I still had sore throat and since that time until now I have sore throat then I got some kind of dots (23 weeks from exposure) on my upper arms, shoulders, back, and forehead they are small red dots and some of them got yellow heads I went to a doctor he said it's some kind of acne I got from changes in my body due supplements I take for gym. after a week (24 weeks from exposure) from that my throat got worse so I went to the doctor again this time he said that am having some kind of acid reflux so he gave me pills and told me to change my diet to get better.So far I had sore throat for about a month and a half (cools off and becomes sore again) I keep thinking I have HIV and it ruins my life I can't live normally keeps eating me alive. I live in a society were HIV and sexual interactions is considered a great taboo I can't talk to anyone about it and only way to get tested is by everyone knowing about it and am afraid I might turn out positive!!Please help, Is it possible for anyone to show HIV symptoms after 4-5 months? Or its up to 3 months only? Do you think I have HIV?


HIV-1 RNA PCR ACCURATE AT 9 days and 16 days

Hello and thank you! I had a high risk exposure and a small shingle outbreak 8 days later. Here are my tests:Day 7 HIV 1 and 2 antibody negDay 9 HIV-1 RNA PCR VERSION 2, down to 20 copies per ml - none detected- negDay 14 quick antibody Oratest negDay 16 HIV-1 RNA PCR VERSION 2 (again) - no copies detected- negI'm still very worried. I'm going for final tests on Day 42. What are my odds that I am positive for HIV? God Bless.


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